I'm NOT a nuke addict. Sure, I dropped 17 in MW2 and 5 in unranked WIC games, but does three more explosions than necessary for nuclear winter make an addict?

Ifear: Well, when you risk the future of the clan in a CW w/ a rival clan just to nuke them and make a point... YES it does. You scared the crap out of me!

Xer0 \^/

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FAB's???

The only TA I requested was airborne infy... and I don't blame you, and we DID win with a bang, kicking their ass before the match was 1/2 way over! Oh, and thanks for the compliment... I'm good at WiC, yet I suck at Chess... (at least, online, w/ 40-year-old Virgins, against my family, I've only been beaten by my ex-illegal immmigrant uncle, who spent a year in jail doing nothing but chess.)

Xer0 \^/

Fuel Air Bombs (Russian equivalent of a Daisycutter).

I'll play you in chess this weekend if you'd like.

Ah, sure.  I'm already disgraced as the Clan's commander, got beaten by Offbeat Ninja in a 1v1, and now Gen. Allmano outranks me by 1 star, so this ought to be the nail in the coffin. Can't wait for General*USA* to get back from Afghanistan, I'm tired of being USA1031's errand boy.  He's just a figurehead, I do all the work in the clan. He's like a parent who puts his kid up for adoption, and then comes to take his kid back once someone else is done raising it.

Skidi: Well, I found out who she likes (I guess... she might just be luring me into confessing, but idk) so it's straight along the old path from here...

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Hmm.... the only way I can think of spending more time w/ her would be OUT of school, since I don't have anyone to pick me up after clubs... UNLESS I could get a ride to her house w/ her, and then just chill there until I got picked up, but that's at least a leap 5 steps forward, not the slow/steady advance that we need...

Reading into her every move? You mean like how I"m guessing she's trying to lure me into a trap? I guess that's a bit unhealty, now I look at it.

Two unusual gestures from her party today: For one, her GF, Hannah, once again wore my jacket all day (To hide the cuts on her arm...) and hugged me (IN FRONT of her BF and GF...) at least a dozen times.  My crush called me her "bestest friend" today in art, but there was a conversation that I actually can't remember at the moment that preceded that, something to do with us trusting one another, but idk right now.

Xer0 \^/

Hooray for good news!  Also: In civics we're playing an online stock game (wallstreetsurvivor) and she's ranked a good... 60-some, I fluctuate between 20 and 5, so I've offered her some help and advice... to cover my tracks, I offered my ex the same.

Xer0\^/

You mean ask her openly if it's me? Nah, I found out who it is, and she's even told me in person (her lack of eye contact bugged me, but she was going thru her purse, but I can't tell if she's lying to me anyway, her eyes are such a dark brown...)

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I am sorry for the whole "following father from military" thing. It must be really tough for you

About the "mask" you mentioned that you forged for yourself, I am not sure why you would say that, because I dont see you "wearing" any mask here, in this forum. Maybe you mean in real life?

Moving on....

The forums for you, is not just a way to have fun, or just casual e-conversations. Well its that too (as for everyone), but its also a way to feel less lonely, to feel more important and respected, but mostly to releive yourself of all these things that make you sad, maybe maybe find some comfort and sympathy.

Most times you get carried away by your feelings, either bad ones or good ones, but feelings make you feel more human, more decent as a person. You always try to be good for her, feeling that if you are good enough, you wont hurt her in any way. In the end all that matters is that she is safe, happy, and well protected by her guardian-angel, you. But of course it is a slow torture to be so near her and not be with her.

Hmm...I think I have gotten too far, so I am gonna stop

I am not sure what you mean by saying that: "If it doesn't work out, I have a system in place for that, and if it does, maybe we can forget about all the pain in our past and finally move forward, into the future."

I do have a pre-set mood about everyone and everything, and I also want to know as much as possible about people or things I know. I have a very strong natural curiosity.  But thats just 1 thing about me.

Banned because we are wasting forum space here, and boring people to death.

Should we move this to the Chatroom?

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Right, let's begin...

It's OK about the military thing...

About the mask: Yes, I mean in real life, what you see here is essentially what you get.

Actually, that's the primary reason I started posting here in the first place: I was lonely... and had too many secrets to share.

I was referring to the fact that for one: If it doesn't work out, I can just go back to how it was in Maryland... shut off from everyone and everything.  After all, the risk in this game is doubled in that all my friends are her friends, too.  And if it works out, the two of us together will allow each other to stop dwelling on our respective pasts (her and her family issues... relationship, both romantic and non, and drug issues, me and my emotional ones) and move along. Did I mention that it's her plan to run away from home once she graduates High School?

Yes! Two points for a hit with a shot in the dark!

Xer0 \^/

Nine Reasons It's Tough to Be Friends with a Crush

Many guy-girl friend duos have become complicated because one person started to have a crush on the other person. Personally, many of my friendships with women (before I started working) developed because I was attracted to them. If you're not able to date someone, there might be the option of remaining friends. But sometimes this isn't easy. Here are some reasons why it's tough to be friends with a crush:

1. It's So Easy
Isn't this how love is supposed to be? You get along so well, you make each other laugh, respect each other. You can call them five times a day and they won't think you're psycho. You can tell them anything. Well, of course it's easy when you're just friends, because there's no pressure and no sex. The easier things are between you, the easier it seems to take that next step. But it's frustrating that you can't just do it.

2. You Might Become a Romantic Confidante
This is the worst place to be: they tell you about all the other people they want to date. Even worse, you may become one of their confidantes, giving them advice on how to land that special someone in their life. All you can do is be a good sport and give them the best advice you can, outside of "forget about them and date me ... can't you see?"

3. Romantic Moments Must Have a Limit
At times, you are basically dating your friend without the intimacy. You go out to dinner, movies, spend a lot of time together. Things really get painful when you end up crashing together in bed. Maybe I'm lame, but I've crashed in bed with many crushes that were just friends, without making a move. I just lay there and wished we could be closer. It really sucked when the girl felt safe enough with me as a friend to cuddle while we slept. I wish I wasn't that "safe friend" all the time.

4. They Might Want One of Your Friends
In a painful variation of Romantic Confidante, your crush might end up liking one of your friends they meet through you. Because they just think of you as a friend, they will tell you and solicit advice. Megan, my best girlfriend in college, assisted me in many schemes, trying to help hook up with her sorority sisters. We'd literally sit down with one of those composites with all of their pictures and I'd pick out the cute ones. Later on, I found out that Megan had told my friends she liked me, and I realized that those projects must have been quite annoying for her.

5. You'll Always Have Hope
You'll read into things they do, hoping it means something. And you'll secretly think that your friendship will turn into a relationship someday if you do everything right.

6. The Outside World Expects You to Get Together
Everyone who knows you sees how great you are together. And, because we live in this voyeuristic Us Weekly-reading world, people ask why you aren't dating, or suggest that you should be dating. In fact, when I went to Megan's wedding, many of her relatives pulled me aside and said: "We always thought you'd be the one walking down that aisle with her." I guess Megan never told them about my fear of commitment and my frustrating immaturity.

7. You Can't Reveal Your Feelings
This is the old "don't rock the boat" rule. You value your friendship, and taking the next step might destroy it. Even if you're not afraid of destroying the friendship by taking the next step, you still hold back because you know the other person sees you as a friend. So, your feelings are left to burn inside secretly.

8. Tension
Whether it's simple biology, mood, chemistry, or a combination of all of these things, there is often sexual tension with friends of the opposite sex. And though there's at least one way to relieve this tension that would be quite fun, you just can't do it.

9. You Would Treat Them Better
If you're very close, every time your friend is hurt or frustrated in love, they might come to you for solace and comfort. You have to sit there watching different people hurt them and take them for granted, knowing you would give them the world and treat them right. But, all you can do is be there for them when they are hurt before they move on to the next bad apple.

Oh but there is Dakota!

There's you! You'll always be tormented that you never made your move! That you never took the risk! That you stood aside and let her choose for herself! That, when she's gone, she made the wrong choice and ruined her life! You will never know how things will happen and when your balls finally drop and you take the chance it'll be too late! MWAHAHAHAHA! We've warned you for almost a year! Just DO IT ALREADY! we said! but no! you refused to listen and now you have arrived at the peak time to make your move and you let it slip on by! 

Veers, I have several things to say.

1. I think that you're either jealous of the attention I'm getting because of this, or something happened with you and your crush, so you're taking out your romantic vengeance on the most obvious target you could find.

2. While she can be a little overeactant at times, I trust in her bright intelligence to do what is good for herself. Should the time come when she cannot, or fails, to make that choice, I shall  be there.

3. Must you remind me of the present, Schniezel? You obsess with today, and how tomorrow will never change... and it won't, until I do something, I agree, but I've made my choice, and if it makes her happy, it makes me happy, too.

Xer0 \^/

WOAH

You have more karma then me in the Demigod Forums, Morpheas!

Xer0 \^/

Haha, I'm back in the Sins Forums, where I have 22 and you have 6... but that means we're tied for karma, since you had 22 in the Demigod ones, and I guess that those are your Home Forums...

Oh, just e-mailed my crush. She laughed at me for coming home wearing a jacket that smelled like her GF...

Xer0 \^/